Back to school...

Another school year has begun, and I can hardly believe I've been teaching 10 years.  It gets harder each year, however, though you'd think the opposite to be true.  I sometimes laugh to myself that I studied counterpoint, took several language diction classes, 4 years of theory and history to say everyday, "If the notes go up, sing higher.  If they go down, sing lower."  Literally, it has come to that.

I do love teaching music, however, and don't think I could stomach another topic, or teaching kids who don't want to be in my room.  If only they sang in tune more consistenly, it would sound more like music, and less like abuse.

I forsee many changes in my near future regarding my life, and I don't quite know which direction to take.  This year is about letting go, and seeing what my heart finds.  It's terrifying, but I'm looking forward to making major changes.

Forgettable spring

I'm terrible at keeping up with blogging, but I love reading the blogs of my friends. The insanely beautiful weather has held up, and now, with April among us, it feels like a true April, which might be my favorite month. I love the rain. I love the grass growing wildly, more vibrant than the day before. I love planting, being outside, even doing outside chores, before the nasty Kansas heat kicks in.

Aside from the beautiful weather, it has been a rough few weeks. With the random passing of a friend and colleague, life has me asking many questions, and non-stop. They invade my sleep, wake me up, and still leave me with no answers. I am a very pragmatic person, and demand to know the reasons behind things. It's hard to succumb to the truth that I am not running the show, and life is not black and white.

I look forward to getting away this summer as much as possible, and enjoying my friends and family scattered throughout the country. I just wish I had more money to visit more people. It's hard to narrow it down each summer.

Feelin' Good

While I'm feeling this way, I am inclined to blog. I am extremely happy. January is my favorite month to teach. I feel like everyone, without even having to say it, feels renewed and empowered to start the year anew, vowing to work harder, whine less. While this lasts, I'm going to soak up every second of it.
Also, the unseasonably warm Kansas weather is completely confusing me. It is like March outside. We have not seen snow or ice, but it's bound to come, which is fine. I just hope it's one beautiful storm, then we can get back to March.